Standing here alone after dark while the wind brushes against my face, I wonder what I want to be
As I walk
Deeper into the dark
I see a car fly by every five minutes or so, each driver dropping off the same look at me
“Who are you? And why are you here?”
“You don’t seem to fit in with your peers”
That long look
And that calm wind
Seems to only make me wish more I could meet the end
The end of the anxiety and confusion
The end of being stuck behind this delusion
Or illusion
The illusion of control
While at the same time I feel like I’m just a pawn everyone just loves to hold
Like I’m just that last drop of glue that helps their ideas shape and mold
I feel useless
I feel lost
I feel betrayed as Jesus should have while he was on the cross
If only I could forgive
Then start to forget
If only I wasn’t buried so deep in this
If only I wasn’t on the edge, standing over defeat and failure, if only I hadn’t tried to take that step to get across to the platform of peace, comfort and bliss
If only I hadn’t taken that step, missed and slipped



Bottom Line


As I read the last line of this poem I hope you know I’m here to help you
I hope you know I’ll be there to cool you down when you feel like the pain and stress will melt you
The bottom line is you’ll always have me
My mission every night is to see you fall asleep happily
I’ve written a lot of things to you
But when I think of what to say in person I have no clue
I’m lost
Without you
Complete and at peace with you
The bottom line is you’ll have my heart
If I had one wish it’d be that we never part
This may be just another love letter
But the fact that it’s about you makes it so much better
I never thought I could love this much
I never thought I’d fight this hard and never give up
As the days go by
Followed by the nights I lay down staring at the sky
I think about how much I love you
And I’ve finally realized why
The bottom line is you’re great
You’re the reason I smile
You’re all I need
You’re everything to me
When you’re feeling trapped in a dark and gloomy place I’ll be there soon to help you shine
I guess I’m just trying to say
you’re my bottom line