Misconstrued

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Do you know what its like dating emotions?

What its like spending every day looking for that perfect mix of a soothing potion?

One to give to your lover so that she knows you’ll always be there

Or one that stops her from fighting the fact that the thought is already there

See those who say depression is something people can control and erase have simply never lived through it

Those who say anxiety isn’t real have simply never panicked when someone asks if you love them even though both parties know the answer to it

My life is my child and soon to be wife

She knows i love her unconditionally but her mind just will not give up on this fight

“What if he leaves?”

“What do you mean? You know he loves you”

“I know its not likely at all but bad things do come true”

She argues with her mind throughout the day

But her mind can be put at ease for a while if i can find the right thing to say

Those are the moments i live for

Those are why if someone asks if im ever gonna leave my response is, ” first there has to be a door”

If we grew old and she grew sick i would be by her side supplying anything she needed from hugs, walks in the park to making her fall in love with me over and over again if she developed amnesia

Ill do whatever it takes to get through to her

Ill take her anywhere she feels like her soul is pushing her

I will be that rock she grabs when she feels like shes falling off of a cliff

I will be the one she always has no matter how rough it gets

She taught me how to love a woman and appreciate the light she brings into my life

It feels so perfect at 22 calling her my wife

This is my life

My life is perfect for me

Just always remember you are my life and its impossible for me to leave

When your mind says otherwise think of my voice

Telling you i love you and i would never live life without you no matter the second choice

Though there are constant battles in her mind that she feels like she will always lose

I just hope it is as clear for you as it is for me, this love can never be misconstrued

 

 

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How Do You Know?

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How does one truly know they’re in love?
Is it because you don’t fight with your mind when you tell someone you are?
Or maybe because you know you’d do anything for someone like jump in front of a moving car to save them?
For me, its much more complicated than that
For me, it has to backed up with mental and emotional facts
I know I love you because the thought of you makes me feel like the world isn’t as bad
Because feeling your skin on mine makes my mind go crazy with excitement, sometimes I feel like I’m gonna have a heart attack
I know I love you because when I think into the future you’re the one there with me and the one ill always have
I know that my love for you is true because I know no one can or will take your place
It would be insane for someone to think they could
Your voice can take away any pain I have, it has before and I have never told you
You know your love for someone is true when your head is pounding and every sound or movement you make hurts but as soon as that person speaks the pain is through
Even when you’re sleeping and I look at you, you make me feel so good
What is love if this isn’t? I have to know before my time on this planet is through
If you truly believe in soul mates and the person you say those three words to live up to those in your mind then yes, you’re truly in love
Because if you were not you would be looking for the one who really deserves your love
When you think of a person and your mood is changed in a split second you have to be in love
If you can genuinely forgive someone for causing you pain, you must be in love
If there is a god, when I die and meet them the first thing I will do is thank them for letting you into my life
You make my life worth it
You make the image of love perfect
You make this world painless
What do you think of when someone asks you what pain is?
If you think of losing that person then yes, you have got to be in love
I never thought id be able to say this
I never thought the day would come where a person could make my life painless
You’re all I need in life
The perfect image of my wife
You’re only in love if I ask you would you die for that person and you can say yes without even thinking twice
You’re perfection, happiness and motivation all wrapped in one
Until you understand what you mean to me as you understand your name, my duties on this earth will never be done

Bottom Line

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As I read the last line of this poem I hope you know I’m here to help you
I hope you know I’ll be there to cool you down when you feel like the pain and stress will melt you
The bottom line is you’ll always have me
My mission every night is to see you fall asleep happily
I’ve written a lot of things to you
But when I think of what to say in person I have no clue
I’m lost
Without you
Complete and at peace with you
The bottom line is you’ll have my heart
If I had one wish it’d be that we never part
This may be just another love letter
But the fact that it’s about you makes it so much better
I never thought I could love this much
I never thought I’d fight this hard and never give up
As the days go by
Followed by the nights I lay down staring at the sky
I think about how much I love you
And I’ve finally realized why
The bottom line is you’re great
You’re the reason I smile
You’re all I need
You’re everything to me
When you’re feeling trapped in a dark and gloomy place I’ll be there soon to help you shine
I guess I’m just trying to say
you’re my bottom line

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Humming In The Air

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As I sit here chaoticly striking the stings of my guitar
I think of us laying back gazing at the stars
“There’s a humming in the restless summer air”
I feel like it’s lifting my soul way up there
That humming is your voice
I fly so high and get stuck with no choice
I love when I touch you and you blush
I love when my soul glows when my body feels your subtle touch
You lift me up mentally
While freeing me spiritually
Although most of my poems are for you The urge to tell you feel just won’t go away from me
So I guess until I’m gone you’ll hear and read these lines
Telling the stories and memories we’ve made
And In due time
You’ll be the one with my last name
There’s this dream I had
Martin Luther King dreamed of equality and peace
While I’m sitting here dreaming of the day that for you  I can let my heart off this leash
Eminem fought for a chance to lose himself and prove himself
While I fight to prove that I won’t lose myself
Although I may lose myself in you
Sometimes when i see your face I don’t know what to do
Other than smile and kiss you
100 and ten percent of me wants you to spend the rest of your life with me
Come take my hand
While I take your mind to places unknown
I just hope my love for you will always be known

Old Love

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I used to know what it felt like
I used to know what it was
Now I’m clueless when someone mentions the word love
I sit here and think about it
I’m starting to live a life without it
I say it but don’t mean it
Or I mean it but don’t see it
I used to have a heart
Now it’s a cavity in my chest
There used to be life in me
Now I feel like I’ve taken a rest
It’s a thing of the past this thing called love
I wish I could fly away like a bug
To a place where I remember what love is
Until then ill sit here and write
Maybe then this thing will feel right

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Faded Tears

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Laying in flowers she thinks of her life
She thinks of the day her love will make her his wife
She doesn’t speak aloud until what used to be a cloud
Is covered by his face as he sets down his guitar case
Soon she’s serenaded by the sound
Of his finger striking the guitar cords
As she wipes that falling tear that landed so perfectly on her cheek
She realizes she’s gonna be wiping more tears as he sings, “Will you marry me?”

If You Were Gone

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If you were gone I’d take a vow of silence because I’d have no reason to speak
If you were gone I’d never know what to think
If you were gone, life for me would fade as well
If you were gone I’d rather be in the lowest pit of hell
But if for someone reason I’m the one to expire first then I’ll leave my love to you
And I’ll be standing there waiting as your soul floats through
I’ve never seen or felt love like this
I never knew such power could exist
But as I write this poem and as I wipe the tear that falls from my face
I carve in my chest “no one can take your place”
And as you read this and think
I hope this can be enough to make the sorrow in your heart begin to shrink.